Live. Breath. Love: 2010

Dec 3, 2010

我想不在意

不管再怎么装做不在乎, 心中还是有那条刺

不管我在怎么说服自己"没关系",

但事实上.. 我骗不了自己.

好讨厌这样的自己,一直跟自己说"不要想太多",

可是我控制不了自己不去想.

即时我刻意不去想,心里还是有个闹钟,

不定时地提醒我.. 它还在.

我知道..　这样不好。

可是又能怎样呢？

是应该预料到了吧，在陷入这一切的那一刻。

But nothing would ever prepare me for this..

Nov 4, 2010

给自己的承诺

如果我选择知道，那我不会介意，也不会伤心；
我选择相信一切，而不是心存疑惑;
我献上最好的我，即使这不能永恒;
我会懂得理性，而不是奋不顾身地;
我会好好保护自己，不受太大的伤害；
我不做傻瓜；
没关系，所有的事都没关系；
如果有一天这一切都结束了，我不会哭; 反而我会微笑，因为曾经拥有.

幸福是短暂的，不过如果能在当下抓住幸福，那就足够了.

While in Adelaide

Recent activity includes:

Baking.. baking.. baking..

Oct 16, 2010

我是女生

我是女生。。

就如其他女生，我缺乏安全感，也需要安全感。

女王力里写到。。

女生在感情里最需要的，只是最简单的- 安全感

虽然简单，但往往却是最难得到的。

我需要的只是一个避风港，在我懦弱时，

能给我一个拥抱，告诉我一切都会没事的；

我需要的是一格宽阔的肩膀，在我难过，伤心时，

能让我依靠着放声大哭;

我只是想要在感到不安时，

有你告诉我，你的心一直在我这里,

让我能够信任你，也能够想信 ‘我们’

很抱歉我是女生，那么缺乏安全感。。

Oct 3, 2010

I want them

I'm in love with charm bracelet lately.

I can't decide between Thomas Sabo and Pandora.

Loves Pandora's double waved leather bracelet,

but I only like a few of their charms,

and the ones that are really pretty and made of gold,

they're heaps expensive. (what a bummer)

(This little fella costs $1540.00 )

Thomas Sabo has really pretty charm, but they're too clunky that I will definitely bump them off somewhere, somehow if I had them

It would be awesome if I could somehow combine them 2 together.

Too bad their design and charms are completely different.

But then again,

charm bracelet only mean something if it's given by someone special,

cuz each charm would represent something special,

that only him & I would know.

If I buy it for myself, it defeats the whole purpose of wanting the bracelet.

Sep 29, 2010

Past few days

It's been a tough few days..

Went to Sydney for a one-day doctor visit at Sydney Eye Hospital

and spend most time there with little time to shop.

Did 2 small procedures while I'm there.

The procedure I'm trying to avoid, in the end, I still had to went through it.

At least it wasn't as scary as expected.

But I still feel the pain, despite the local anesthetic given.

The good news is.. they can't find anything, so I might be cured?

The bad news is.. I've got a SORE eye.

They told me it would happen, but that does not come with the specification

SORE = swollen, teary, painful and red.

And it feels like one of those recurrent episodes.

Had to go for medical checkup yesterday,

and I was in my sunnies the whole day (even indoors) to hide my swollen eye.

The sad thing is: they need to take picture of me on the spot.

Thus off goes my sunnies & smile...

The lady was kind enough to tell me: "Ohh, it's not that bad."

Result: I've got this hideous picture of me taken

without makeup, hair barely set, -.o look

and attached to my medical forms. So everyone who did the assessments would see it.

My look then - a girl that's just been dumped, and cried her eyes out. *LOL*

At lunch, The waiter actually told me "Don't think too much" when he served my meal.

Do I really look that pathetic??

But it's slowly getting better, at least today I do not struggle as much to open my eye.

I hope results on Friday won't disappoint me *fingers crossed*

Sep 25, 2010

End of another placement

Finished another placement. Yay!!

Despite constantly complaining that I've bored at work,

and I've got my arse stuck to the chair the whole day,

it was rewarding to know that people do listen to our findings,

despite them being more superior.

And it feels good to know that we've did a great job,

and were competent, efficient and most importantly,

slowly developing confidence and the right personality to take on the job.

WATCH OUT PEOPLE..

a dietitian's in the way of its making =)

Sep 22, 2010

Adelaide.. here I come

Gonna to be in Adelaide in 10 days time

I'm excited!!

Back to that familiar place

where there's my girls =)

Girls.. time to take out those pillows and blankets

I demand a pillow talk.

See u soon, xoxo

Sep 6, 2010

What T said made me thought hard about where I am now.
I know I shouldn't, but I'm in doubt.
What I have now...
Is it real?
Is it worth it?
and Is it what I want?
Honestly, I have no answers.

I thought the universe will work its way out, time will work its magic
but maybe I'm just being too naive, or ignorant.
I don't know anymore, There's so many unexplained questions,
and I don't know where to find the answers.

Am I too cheap to have placed myself in this situation?

Aug 28, 2010

To U

很想告诉你.. 我哭, 不是因为..,

是因为.. 你对我太好, 也很温柔,

你对我的了解,甚至超越了我的预料,

你所做的一切, 我知道, 也很珍惜,

但是你不属于我.

梦醒后, 一切的一切, 只是美好的回忆.

Aug 16, 2010

It Ain't What It Seems

The Love Story that I've been longing to know,

As it uncovers, I'm knowing more..

More of How happy endings NEVER happens,

How foolish my expectations are,

and How I DO NOT want to go through the same thing.

When you screamed at her, have it ever crossed your mind that it hurts to watch you fight?

When you blame everyone else for every little thing? Can you please stop. take a breath. and think. Are you blaming us for our sake, bcuz you want us to be better? Or bcuz you're mad, and need somewhere (or someone) to relieve your anger?

Just... Let me hang on to it a bit longer, before you decide to kill away my dreams.